these days..

these past few days, i have been thinking of what my plans are for the future. i would actually be graduating next school year, but.. i don't think my future is secured already, although i really want it to be. haayyy... why is it like that.. i am scared. my family is experiencing financial problems right now, i don't know what will happen.. i just want to be ready. i really want to work right away so that i could help my parents to play for our bills at least, also, i promised my brother that i will be the one to sponsor his college education. *sigh* i don't know.. i'm just really scared.

i am also out of social life. hayy.. i just think that everyone is happy but me. and if i talk to them (my friends), they might be worried and i will be the spoiler of the fun. hmmm.. also, im not in the mood to hear their "happy stories." but i miss them.. i really miss being with them.

but i am really happy that my family is complete again.