WHEN?

I don't want to be single for life. I know i am still young, still young. But my eyes are open for this thing you call "Relationship." Attach to it is of course, "Love." Stupid of me to think that I might just not encounter it. *sigh* Again, I am still young to close my doors and to put down my hopes. But the thing is that, I am hopeful and I am very open for this person to come in to my so called life and distract me and destroy me and just crack me out of my shell. The thing is just, I am afraid that it might not happen?

I have friends BEFORE who are just like me, who didn't have, even a single boyfriend or just someone to walk them home, praise her/them, and all that dating stuff. And now, they have their own cute little romantic stories on how they met their boyfriends, how they became lovers, how they started, blah blah blah blah.

Insecure, right?

I envy them! I envy them to the fullest of my intention of writing this blog. I just really want to have a cute little romantic story of my own. I just really want to have this thing they all say "Love", it is? I am the only one in my friends, a hundred of them.. and I am the only single alive.

I really want to find you. I really want to be loved, as much as i want to love. I want to have a relationship, me and someone i love in it. I want to be taken care of and to take care of someone, i want my hand to be held, I want to be kissed as passionate as that someone could be, i want to be respected, I want to be someone's dream, I want to be hugged tight, I want someone i could call and cry to in the middle of the night, I just really want to be someone's interest, apple of someone's eyes.

I don't want to be just a FRIEND. I have a lot of friends, count them, I have plenty of them, and I don't want another one anymore. I want someone who will treat me special.

Am I asking for too much?

I am ending my college life the same way I started it. SINGLE.

But, again, as I always say.. I will be waiting for that someone, for us to make a cute little romantic story of our own..

And then, I will ask it again....

WHEN?