MAKE or BREAK

mukang kailangan ko na rin i-blog to...

KINAKABAHAN TALAGA AKO.

Sabi ko hindi ako magbblog, dahil tama n yung blog nila July and Karen at ng ibang nagcomment sa mga blog nila, para sbhin at i-express ang nararamdaman ng bes2, ng buong batch. Pero hindi ko mapigilan. Balak ko sana magblog after kong makuha yung results this 1st sem.. but no. Hindi ko na kaya i-hold lahat ng worries ko.

Sabi nga ni Karen, iba ngayon, usually, mararamdaman mo kung babagsak o papasa ka pagkatapos mong sumagot ng exam. But this time is different, kung anong akala mong tama, mali.

Sabi naman ni July, may parte ang mga teacher o proffesors sa kahihinatnan ng mga estudyante nila.

Sabi ko..

GUSTO KONG GUMRADUATE. GUSTO KONG PUMASA. GUSTO KONG MAGKATRABAHO NG MAGANDA. Pano mangyayare yun? simple lang, pagbutihin at pagpuyatan ang pag-aaral -na ginagawa naming lahat. Hindi mo masasabing hindi ako/kami nagaral eh. Hindi katulad ng dati na tanggap mo kung bagsak ka, dahil hindi k nag-aral o kaya nama'y najujustify ng mga natutunan mo. ngayon kasi, IBA NA. IBA ANG LABOR, IBA ANG TAX. Hindi ko alam kung bakit nahihirapan kami sa TAX. Yun nga yung dapat n madali e. -dun pumapasok ang sabi ni july na may part (in this case, malaki ang part) ng prof sa kahihinatnan ng estudyante. Kung Good communicator ba? (hehe)

LIFE.... now i can say, IS UNFAIR. -dati ko laging sinasabi na LIFE IS FAIR. Ganun ka-optimistic -na nawawala n ngayon.

All i wanted is to end this sem, have all the tests done and rest for the whole break. Try to forget about the academic burdens.. enough.

But it will haunt me, us, everyone.

I have my goals, we have our goals. I am just afraid i might lose it. EVERYTHING. Plans, sacrifices, insights. This is just another blog of i-dont-know-whats-next for me subject. I am just carelessly saying my rants, worries, presuppositions, thoughts and viewpoints.

one more thing:
From sleepless nights of thesis, training, cramming, presentations, practices, rehearsals to shameless recitations, quizzes, tests, hands-on activities... I don't know how i survived them, for whatever reason -that I can't find until now, I think we all (graduating students) deserve this very last sem, with no back subjects and no failing grades.

Now that I am (we are) about to have my (our) supposedly last sem, God forbid, sana makapasa kaming (tayong) lahat. Sana walang ma-le-left behind. Sana makapasa ko. Sana hindi ako ma-left behind.

**fingers crossed**
shat. KABADO n tlga ko..