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Well, it's been a long time since i have blogged my life. Yes, LIFE. The last serious emotions were well, scared, nervous and worried to death. NOW, i am happy, contented, excited for the next level and perhaps, still nervous. I still have another labor. okay, so maybe i passed LABOR STANDARDS. But honestly, I got an official grade of 74.2. Meaning, I actually failed. But Mr. Bong Lopez made a big consideration on his part. I really appreciate what he did. What I am worried about is that I don't have a choice but to pass this sem's labor. I am not going to screw this chance up this time.

My long awaited semester break just ended. I have rested well and i didn't waste every minute of it. That's what i really need. A very good rest in our house, with Paulo Coelho's books, nice drama series, shows on traveling and food. I loved every minute and second of it. It's nice to have that kind of feeling; no worries, happy and lax. But it just ended, so, I am back to the normal activities I have in school. Studies.. This time, I cannot fail.

I appreciate what God lead me into. No worries about anything. Love, heart aches. No nothing. Just plain goal and family. I love the fact that God made me understand why he haven't let me met my, uhmm.. as corny as it sounds, but its true: my first love? My first special boyfriend. And i am not asking for him anymore. I am letting it come along, no huggles, no control, no anything. It is more special and mature that way. I am thankful to my friends for they have taught me a lot of things about LOVE and life. They just don't know that they have shown me what to do and what I shouldn't be. LOVE can change a person. It's true. But DESPAIR has a bigger impact on a person's change. (That's what i get from reading books haha)

I hope everyone will make a way on how to escape their "despair". And I am pointing this thought out for a friend. She is just too overwhelmed about LOVE that she forgot what the actual meaning of the word is. What happened to her should make her a BETTER person. She is at her worse now. And I am hoping she will be enlightened before its too late.